Strength
Strength comes from within, or so I have been told. Today I found the strength to start blogging again in the words a friend wrote on her blog. I had met her back in the winter of 2008-2009 while I was heading south to the Bahamas. We sailed and snorkeled together for many weeks. She made her last blog post in July of 2012. I had looked for newer posts with beautiful pictures of all the places she and her husband Don had been to. Instead, today, I read how she had lost her husband. The beautiful words she had written about Don brought me to tears. I figured if she had the strength to write after losing her husband of many years then I could find the strength to blog again also.
My strength to carry on after the loss of Micheal came from my children, my granddaughter and my dogs. Their physical presence made a huge difference in my life. GOD was always there with me and as the Steven Curtis Chapman song says He is my hiding place when the storms of life come raging. Friends also came by to lend their strength and support but everyone eventually has to go back to their own lives and I must face the future on my own.
As I write this tomorrow will mark the 5 month anniversary of Micheal's passing. Tuesday, the 13th would have been our one year wedding anniversary. I struggled at first, trying to cope with the loss of the love of my life, the silence in the house. Even the dogs missed Micheal, they would look into his office and whine. I turned to canning at first. But it is hard to find strength in a project that you loved to do as part of a couple. Even cooking lost its appeal. I ran away several times and sought comfort with friends and families.
Now the time has come for me to move forward in life. I made plans to move back to Florida to be with family and friends. Now I am counting down the days to my hopeful scheduled move date. This is a new year, and this is my new blog and I want you all to be a part of my life as I embark on this new journey. I will end this post with two photos of flowers from Micheal's service.
Next up I will turn back the hands of time so I can bring you up to date on the life the girls and I have been living.
My strength to carry on after the loss of Micheal came from my children, my granddaughter and my dogs. Their physical presence made a huge difference in my life. GOD was always there with me and as the Steven Curtis Chapman song says He is my hiding place when the storms of life come raging. Friends also came by to lend their strength and support but everyone eventually has to go back to their own lives and I must face the future on my own.
As I write this tomorrow will mark the 5 month anniversary of Micheal's passing. Tuesday, the 13th would have been our one year wedding anniversary. I struggled at first, trying to cope with the loss of the love of my life, the silence in the house. Even the dogs missed Micheal, they would look into his office and whine. I turned to canning at first. But it is hard to find strength in a project that you loved to do as part of a couple. Even cooking lost its appeal. I ran away several times and sought comfort with friends and families.
Now the time has come for me to move forward in life. I made plans to move back to Florida to be with family and friends. Now I am counting down the days to my hopeful scheduled move date. This is a new year, and this is my new blog and I want you all to be a part of my life as I embark on this new journey. I will end this post with two photos of flowers from Micheal's service.
Next up I will turn back the hands of time so I can bring you up to date on the life the girls and I have been living.
